Not really that confused.

I've been thinking about this blog every time I'm on my computer and there has been absolutely no inspiration. So, I decided to basically start over. I think the design was bugging me and maybe this new one will too. Who knows but I will give this a try....

I'm sitting here after eating a very filling dinner I made for my daughter Nicole and I. A simple dinner, a whole chicken, potatoes and maple baby carrots. I don't know if that's what they are called but I've been making these baby carrots lately and cooking them in either maple syrup or brown sugar. Very yummy.

I'm pretty tired and it's entirely my own fault. I stayed up too late last night only allowing myself about 4 1/2 hours sleep. Dumb ass. And so, I paid for it today. I get crabby. I didn't want to be at work at all and basically bitched about it for most of the day until finally I caved and just left early. It's a lack of time off that's getting to me so I took the matter into my own hands even if it was only stealing an hour.

I'm thinking about when American Idol starts. I've been watching it lately but not every week. Mostly, I've been watching it with Janice, my girlfriend. I'll be at her place tomorrow night and the second half will be on. I figure I should see them perform so I understand the voting but a hard rainfall here has stopped and the sun is shining.....so.......hmm, there really is this place I'd like to travel to tonight to take photos. It's a toss up. Okay, I have to go take the photos. I just have to. With that rain as hard as it came down this place I am going to will be fantastic. There. Choice made. I'll catch up to the Idol thing later.

Not only that, right now instead of laying on a couch I think the fresh air is best. I'm not trying to convince myself or anything. haha.

Now I'm typing away thinking, "what if I hate this new template I'm using?" I think too much. That's why I deleted the other posts. Sometimes, if you aren't writing the way you would like to, they all seem like unused baggage in a closet. Out they went.

I've really been so motivated with my photography lately. It's become somewhat of a challenge. My photography trips haven't been the most successful lately but the weather has been really crappy for the environments I've been attempting to capture. But, when I'm out there I'm happy as can be and thinking how amazing it is capturing what no one else most likely isn't noticing. I love it. Not only that, but I can't persuade myself anymore that where I work is acceptable. haha. Really, I can't. Sure I have to keep working but in the meantime, I have to give my passion in photography everything I have within me at this point. If I don't....it will never happen. I'm terrible for thinking about how many better photographers there are out there too. It's not always necessarily that they are better, but different. We're all different and my best work show's how unique I am.

It's 6:49 pm and I'd better finish this up and clean up the dishes and kitchen so I can get there for the sunset. Take care all.....